“When I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.”
I’m sure all of us have heard this quote, or some rendition of it. I think it’s attributed to William Shakespeare, but I’m not sure if that’s accurate. Last week I wrote about my ability to find beauty in the barrenness. Today, I am reminded of how that same quality belongs to (and probably came from?) God, because when He looks at me, though my life may look more like the desolate forest I found myself in than a lush evergreen wood, he still sees love. When He sees me, He falls in love over and over again. The best part is that He never falls out of love with me.
Over the past week, I have been mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and now physically broken. Physical brokenness happened yesterday when I foolishly ran into a wall and injured my pinky toe. (I’ll spare you a photo of this one, my friends. Haha.) This occurrence would probably have been the straw that breaks the camel’s back to any other person under these circumstances. But I had a different reaction. Sure, you could argue that my camel’s back had been long broken already, but as I limped across campus yesterday I laughed because I realized that Jesus has literally broken me in every way possible over the past few days, to the point where I could not even walk without Him. The simple act of putting one foot in front of the other, an act we often take for granted on a daily basis, was an action I couldn’t accomplish without experiencing pain and acknowledging my need for my Savior. I smiled because I knew.
Some lessons and takeaways from this experience:
- Don’t underestimate the importance of your pinkies. They are small, but little things can hold great power.
- Pay attention to what your life is telling you. As the Sufi poet Rumi once put it,
“Give up to grace. The ocean takes care of each wave ’til it gets to shore. You need more help than you know.” Your Lover is probably calling you.
- Sometimes we hit walls, figuratively and quite literally. Sometimes we walk away unscathed and sometimes it hurts for a while. But we always heal.
Lots of love into this week and always,